nothing new to say, i'm sitting in my room thinking about music, i don't think anyone i know is serious about getting a band together atm. it seems like i'm gonna be a teacher afer all, not so bad, at least i'll be playing guitar all day. still can't wait to get out of school, even if i can't get a job and starve alone in the middle of nowhere, i need to get out. listening to korn atm which is helping the never-ending feeling of depression. "YOU ARE LOST" how true, i can't find my way anywhere, nowhere i want to go is around the corner. i just hope the bath i just ran without realizing there was no hot water left suddenly heats up to a temperature i can quietly melt in. i'd love to melt away, no nonsense with knives or rope, nice and easy to just melt. ER is on tv, can't see the point in watching it really, can't see the point in doing anything, and even though that includes breathing, every time i try to stop, i can't see the point in stopping. "DO I NEED THIS FACE?" no.